Untitled.

This is going to be a not so long post. I just need to vent.

I'm becoming an angrier person. Why? Still puzzles me.

I'll end up hurting everyone I love and loves me if I keep doing this.

Such an emotional wreck (with baseless reasons to be).

Frankly, I don't want to be one of the masses. I hate it when I need to conform to that expectation.

Help me God. I just want to be happy.

One Sunday Evening...~

Okay,

Sunday always rain. And rain makes me mellow, hence the writing begins. What's with the sudden frequency of writing? They said the Mayan said this year is end of the world, hence everyone needs to fulfill their bucket lists.

Do I have a bucket list? The bottom right corner says so. The Bucket List before I turn 30. Looks like I have fulfilled most of them (I sometimes forgot I made them but the blog reminded me, so this blog is useful after all :)).

I think if God is willing to let the year continues a good more years, screw the Mayans prediction (and let me live of course), InsyaAllah I can fulfill all of them.

What's with the bucket list? It aims to motivate me. I think I should come out with a more outrageous ones, to push me outside my comfort zones. I have few things in mind that I think not many normal people can do, hence I'm gonna share them in this post, hopefully after few months (or years), look back at these posts and said, I've done at least one of these outrageous items! Let's take a look:

1. Bungee Jumping/ Sky Diving - I am scared of height. Oh well, more to scared of falling (explain the reason I never like roller coasters). I did roller coasters, now let's see if I have the balls (guts) to do any of these. In New Zealand ideally :p.


2. Attending Grammy/Emmy/Academy Awards/Prestigious Awards - Long shot!I can easily score passes for local ones but it was my shallow side that always long to be in any of these awards. And wear a dress. And feel like a celebrity. Feel important. I have to search for contests for this one then! :)


3. Watch a World Cup match - This is possible but God knows where I am / doing every time World Cup is ON. If I do this, I will complete my football checklist (EPL - Checked, Champs League - Checked, World Cup - Pending)


4. Meet my idol - I've met some of them, I want to be inspired by meeting the rest. Namely Richard Branson and/or Oprah. I still don't lose hope!


5. Mentioned in paper/website. Another long shot, as I need to be famous to be talked about, let's see if I can make this a reality.

I'm going to stop at 5, because I'm a realist. I'm going to keep on making resolutions/bucket list as I do believe in aiming for the stars, for if you fail, you can always reach the clouds. I'm such a corny person.

"The world is awesome, it's humanity that sometimes just sucks - Top Commenter, Youtube"

Sunday Rants.

I have the need to write. Because I am somehow felt overburden by dark feelings. I think I'm affected easily because I am an empathetic person.I am easily inspired, I easily get paranoid, all kind of emotions, from one extreme to another one in a split minute.

I guess everyone has a dark side. The level of darkness is what separate people. How much you are showing your dark side is another spectrum. I always believe people have alter egos. A character (either good or bad..or just different) that nobody (or limited people) are aware of. It's a form of escapism in a way. It's a battle everyday to let good conscience take over the bad one. That is why it's very important not to judge people quickly. A seemingly good samaritan might have dark secrets while the obvious asshole might be a discreet philanthropist. You get my drift.

Hence I need my faith to hold on to. I know I'm a sinner, knowingly or not, and I believe that Judgement Day will decide if I am a good enough person to go to this beautiful place called Jannah. Or not. As the world has legal system, I believe the afterworld has too. The difference is, you can escape the world legal system, but God saves all the proofs and you can't runaway from it.

Yes, I've been watching Dexter, hence the expression writing. It's disturbing and intriguing at the same time, I am overwhelmed by the whole concept of the series. I can relate to his monologue, I'm not saying I have the tendency to kill people as I am still sane, but about life and characters. Like I said, I am an empathetic person, hence easily affected. I alternate watching Dexter with something positive as I want to avoid letting it gets to me so much. I guess writing about it shows how much the show affects me in some ways or another. Human characters always fascinate me.

In the end, life goes on. While it still can.

Let Light prevails Darkness.

Cheers for the last weekend of the year~

I have the longest hiatus from the blog. Oh well, this is a non-committal relationship, it’s like visiting the coffee shop situated in a place far away, where when you have the time, you will come visit. And it made you reminisce the times you spent at the coffee shop. Sounds like a weird analogy but I am entitled to write whatever I want in my blog. Ha ha.


So, 2011 is ending. I have read my 2010 End of Year post and I know I can never beat 2010. Not this year though. However, 2011 is a very special year in its own way. Let’s do self reflection today shall we:

Work – I am still figuring out this area. I still hate the question ‘how do you see yourself in 5 years’ but I think I am going to be alright. I am not as scared as I was last year.

Life – I am forced to grow up. I realized that I am a paranoid and spoilt kid (much like my cat Baby Odd) but it is a wakeup call to remind myself that I am indeed alone in the world. Independence is the only way forward. Still not fully Miss Independent yet, but taking baby steps. It’s time to start learn on how to be an adult. And it’s time to be outside my comfort zone and be bold.

Relationship – I put in 2010, it’s a confusing time for love. This time around, I am going to put, praying for the best outcome. We can dream and work on it, in the end I believe in Him. I just want to be happy.

I have put my 2011 resolutions in my Iphone note and I am glad to fulfill 80% of them. I’m going to write new ones as I am corny like that. I would say the best highlight of my year was the chronology of events that happened throughout the year. I was in a very deep trench once, and once you reached the bottom, the only way was up. Happy that I am going to end 2011 with the thing I love the most: My Families.

Cheers for the year that has happened, and I’ll look forward for 2012, where there will be new obstacles, new adventures and hopefully, a new and better ME!

P/S: On the other note, I visited Japan and I loved it! I intended to come back =).

Just Because my Last Post was in April

Hello Blog.

I have been abandoning you. Lately I really have problem in expressing myself in words. Maybe I think the world shouldn't have to know about what my thoughts and rants, or I am just becoming a sheltered soul.

What happened?

Life happens. This is a transition period that hopefully will change me to a better person.

Travel wise? Well, since April, I've been to Kuala Terengganu, Kuching and Redang (Cuti-Cuti Malaysia :D).

I have always liked Terengganu, I think it's an awesome state (besides my hometown) and Redang was simply a rejuvenating break from the usual routines. I wished that the corals could be better preserved (by US!). And I wish I have a beach home overseeing the blue green ocean (Daydreaming is free!)

Kuching is now my new hometown. First visit and I loved it! Great food, people and it ain't a busy town. Driving a day in KL made me thankful for living in Seremban. Really made me realize how much I dislike driving. I still have hopes for a better public transport thought.

Ramadhan is approaching. I hope we will fully utilise this holy month. Cleanse the body and soul. Self discovery and betterment.

I am hoping for an awesomer last quarter of the year! Let's hope for different adventures to commence!

Salam Ramadhan Kareem peeps!:)

Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This)

"Sweet dreams are made of this

Who am I to disagree?

Travel the world and the seven seas

Everybody's looking for something.."

Yes,everyone is looking for something. Something to make their life meaningful. 

We are in the never ending journey of discovering new things about ourself. Mostly we want to find happiness. To be at ease.

When I was growing up, I had a lot of dreams. I wrote fictions which translated subconsciously into what my heart desired. I've tried to achieve, but I failed a lot of times. My self esteem was not at the best of times. 

Came university years, trials and errors became part and parcel of life. Lessons were learnt. 

Came working world, it's about discovering about myself, looking back on what I have done with this life. It's all about assessing and planning.

We live by Allah's will. I am thankful to be given whatever He has given me. The world seems sweet enough to be living at times, and a place where you just want to hide when things go wrong. Fortunes and Misfortune, they are tests. I'm praying that I'll pass these tests. Amin.

It goes back one round to my question: What am I looking for?

I'm looking for answers that will let me better understand myself and other people, so I can help make a change somehow. That is why I love travelling.

I might started to travel because it seems fun (and I envy those who did when I was growing up), but as I travel from one place to another, it never fails to amaze me how different and unique a country could be.I would take pictures and videos and watched them back once I'm home to keep reminding myself that we live in a world of awesomeness. How great is the Creator of this world that able to pull off such diversities in physiques, language, culture, landscape etc.

There must be a reason why we're so different from one another, and it is all stated in Quran.

Qur'an 49:13

O mankind! Lo! We have created you male and female, 
and have made you nations and tribes that ye may know one another.
Lo! the noblest of you, in the sight of Allah, is the best in conduct. 

Lo! Allah is Knower, Aware.

In verses too numerous to mention, the Qur'an invites one to reflect upon the signs Of creation: the heavens, the shining stars and their astonishing celestial movements, and the cosmic order which rules over them all. Similarly, the Qur'an urges one to reflect upon the creation of the earth, the seas, the mountains, the desert, and the wonders contained below the surface of the earth, the difference between night and day and the changing cycle of seasons. It urges mankind to meditate on the extraordinary creation of the plants and the order and symmetry governing their growth, as well as the multiplicity of the animal kingdom. The Qur'an commands man to travel in the world in order to witness other cultures and to investigate the social orders, history and philosophies of past people. Thus it calls man to a study of the natural sciences, mathematics, philosophy, the arts and all sciences available to man, and to study them for the benefit of man and the well-being of society

Credit : http://www.al-islam.org/quraninislam/4.htm

Hence, I'll use my experience to teach myself to be better and hopefully to share them with the world. And finally, to be able to do that, I'll need to travel more. When there's a will there's a way right? 

Yes my fellow friends, if you want to help me (as I won't force anyone), please click on the following link and click 'Like' at the end of the entry.

http://mastraveller.com/WhatsNew/IMASTravel/Blogs/Malaysia/2011/03/29/We-Sing-We-Dance-We-Shop-but-We-Don-t-Steal-Things/322/

I know I'm flawed and imperfect but to share positivity and thoughts with anyone who's willing to listen and learn has always been my dream since I was a kid. I once dreamt of becoming a journalist. I know I am not one right now, but if only I could do that even for a day, I'll be thankful enough.

Thank you very much for reading and voting. You guys had been awesome :).

We Sing, We Dance, We Shop but We Don't Steal Things

It's rude not to visit our neighbours. Hence, after 24 years of living, I visited Singapore in 2010. I was impressed by how organized the country was, and more impressed by their state of cleanliness. I considered Singapore as a better and cleaner KL, because it is a big city with shopping malls, and more shopping malls (i.e Orchard Road).

The opening of Universal Studio Singapore brought me back to the Land of Merlion this year. It was just a weekend getaway and I thought I've seen much of Singapore before; visiting places like Bugis Street, Arab Street, Little India, Clarke Quay and even roller bladed at the East Coast Park the last time I was there.

The Mission: UNIVERSAL STUDIO SINGAPORE (USS)
The Verdict: USS was fun, as I have never been to any Universal Studio before. The highlights of USS were Steven Spielberg movie set experience, The 4D Shrek Movie, the Underworld live show and the rides (altho there were not many of them).You could easily spend a day there and to avoid queuing (especially on school holidays), it's recommended to get the express boarding pass.

My First Universal Studio Trip

We LOVE USS!

With 'Charlie Chaplin'

Love the Vintage Car

The mission was accomplished. Was that the end of the trip? Well, not when you were with friends who knew how to have fun! As one of us was celebrating his birthday during the trip,we toured Singapore once again as he barely remembered the last time he went there. We visited the tourist spots once again, but this time with surprises along the way.

Eating the famous 1 dollar Ice Cream

Activity: We Dance
Where, When,  How: We were in Esplanade, taking jumping shots and doing silly performance in front of Esplanade. Okay, touristy activities were done. Time to search for foods. As we walked towards the MRT Station, somebody stopped us and asked us to dance with them (something about Rocky Horror Show). I was excited because I thought they're going to do a flashmob but they ended up showing us some moves and asked us to repeat them again. Still fun because I never been stopped and asked to dance by strangers before (I was never the happy feet).

Jumping in front of Esplanade

(No dancing photos as we were busy dancing and the video was too embarassing to show to public.HA HA)

Activity: We Shop but Never Steal Things
Where, When, How : First place that comes in mind for shopping in Singapore must be Orchard Road. Well, we found a different place to shop in Singapore, where we discovered a row of authentic and indie shops selling clothes, shoes and all things custom made and vintage at Haji Lane, nearby Bugis Junction and Bugis MRT Station. They weren't cheap but the feeling of buying things that were not mass produced was satisfying indeed.

One of the funky shops on Haji Lane

Indie Inspired

Activity: We Sing
Where, When, How :After all the walking, dancing and shopping, we decided to eat at this cool place, Wanna'B Cafe situated in Arab Street. The environment were laid back (as we were seated on the cushion, japanese style) and the choice of fusion foods were decent. What made this restaurant unique was the stage with drums, guitars and microphones  provided for you to let you have your diva/idol moments (hence the name Wanna'B). That led to the singing part, when we unashamedly sang in front of public as customers got to use the stage and sang three karaoke songs for free.

Cool place to hang out with friends

The WannaBs

Feel like a rockstar 

Verdict of Second Singapore Trip: I thought I have seen them all in my first trip, but you'll never know what you could find in store the second time around. This applies to all the other countries as well, hence I'll have to go to every country I went/going to at least twice so I could be surprised again.

Awesome friends

A wise man once said, "To travel is better than to arrive". Well, just to add to that wise saying, "To travel after arriving is even more better!". Plus, it's a major bonus when the people you're with love the travelling part like you. Thus, my Travel Diary for 2011 had commenced successfully (and dramatically, with the singing and dancing).